It had been a long and emotionally draining summer. It had been 18 months since we
started the adoption process. We were starting to have difficult conversations about
whether expanding our family was going to happen. But that evening we were going out
and let all those feelings take a back seat to a little fun. We never made it to the
Little did I know how much that afternoon in a field in Carrboro would mean to me and would shift the direction of my life. The photos from the session told a story, and that story was that I was starting a beautiful new chapter of my life. The chapter that showed that I had the strength to be the best mom I could be to Ella, no matter the circumstances.
I found a photographer whose beautiful, simple, stripped down portrait style captured the beauty and emotions of my daughter. My husband and I loved how her photographic style was un-styled, letting our daughter shine in the picture instead of props or scenery. As a photographer myself, I loved the use of lights and flash Annemie utilized during the shoot; Hannah looked radiant and like herself.
You know how you know you’ve found “the one” when you genuinely like who you are when you are with that person and you are really being your true self, goofy awkwardness and all? That’s how Annemie’s pictures are.
You are now almost 10 months, and I am already looking back at your 6 month photos with nostalgia… Please stop growing, just for one day.
My mirror was showing me a tired, emotional, uncertain version of myself. But this photo showed me something different. I looked at this photo and for the VERY first time saw the beauty in my own version of motherhood. I probably hadn't slept, or showered, or even brushed my teeth. I felt like a mess, but this photo showed me how beautiful it really was.
In a time when many of us are feeling fractured and adrift in the weird world around us, we crave that connection and understanding, and stories that underline the humanity and shared experience of the people in our communities are a true comfort.